Hey, You're Hurting Me. (just so you know)

That awkward moment when you think you're important to someone, but you're not.

-oh i hate such feelings. and i am actually feeling it now. it wasn't the first time though at hindi lang sa iisang tao ko to naramdaman. hindi ko alam kung may nakasabit sa leeg ko ng: "friends tayo pero dapat hide mo lang yung friendship natin".

i don't wanna be a cry baby but i am definitely not okay right now. i don't know what i did wrong or what i say wrong but someone just keeps on making me feel that i am less important and it's hurting me. oh geez!! and i am crying again? is it for real? seriously??

is it late to have a Christmas wishlist? (they say, everyday it is Christmas anyway)

here's mine:

i wanna meet someone who would not be ashamed that i am his friend.

speaking of which, am i UGLY? am i a whore? am i not worthy to be friend? napansin ko lang, meron akong ibang "kaibigan ko daw" who would act different when we were with a crowd and when we were alone. pag ikaw lang ang kasama they would act as if you are a princess and that you are very much special and blah blah blah pero pag marami ka ng kasama, they would just ignore your presence. what's wrong with you?? can't you just act normal?? is there anything wrong with me hanging around you? if that is so, eh di wag nyo akong kaibiganin. it's not hard to do. geez! you're just my friend so don't act as if boyfriend ko kayo ng patago because you are not!! and stop telling me that i am important because your action suggests a different story. :(