Usapang Last Day

wala naman akong ginawa masyado. nung hapon umattend ako ng medical fellowship. i give thanks for what the Lord has done for me and bid my farewell as well. ang sinabi ko bakasyon lang naman ang reason kaya ako aalis, a part of it was true kasi tourist visa lang naman ang meron ako, i didn't tell them that i am going to look for a job here in dubai. pero kahit ganun yung sinabi ko di pa din maiwasan na hindi umiyak. feeling ko kasi matatagal talaga akong mawawala and mamimiss ko ang medical family. masyado akong naging dependent sa presence nila sa buhay ko. maybe because i longed so much for a family and they were the one who filled that longing. kaya ang hirap magpaalam.

after the fellowship uuwi na ko dapat, nung pumasok ako sa Multi room nandun si Tim (anak ni nanay carol so basically dapat kapatid ko sya.) sabi niya sakin "ano ba yan, aalis ka na lang at lahat di ka man lang nagpaSB."(starbucks) sabi ko wala akong budget kasi nga aalis ako. when i went out biglang nagyaya si Leslie mag SB, treat daw niya. eh naisip ko bigla si Tim so pumasok ako sa Admin room and nagyaya ako sabi ko treat ko sa mga gustong sumama. hehe. people in there were kuya kim, kuya arnel, tim, firmo and marci. lahat sasama except for marci. maybe naisip nya na hindi sya welcome kasi hindi kami in good terms during that time. pumasok si marci ng multi room and i went after him. silang dalawa ni kuya aladen ang nandun.

me: kuya aladen sama ka?

kuya aladen: san?

me: SB. treat ko.

kuya aladen: sige.

me: marci, ikaw sama ka?

marci: pwede ba?

me: oo naman. :)

while walking, si kuya arnel, kuya kim at firmo yung mga kausap ko.. pagdating namin sa SB, last kami pumasok ni firmo, hindi ko alam kung sinadya nila pero the only vacant seat for me eh yung sa tabi ni marci. hindi din naman kami nag usap actually. tatlong beses ko nga lang narinig na ako ung kinausap nya. first nung tinanong ko sya kung anong pastries ang gusto nya at sumagot sya ng "ikaw na lang yung bahalang mag-order para sakin" honestly, hindi ko alam kung sinusubukan nya lang ba kung until now eh alam ko pa din yung mga favorite nya or itatry ko orderin yung mga dating inoorder nya pag magkasama kami. second nung picture taking na and they decided to take some photos of me and marci ang sabi nya na pabulong "ngiti ka naman". and third nung nag-uwian na kami ang sabi nya "salamat thess."

sabi ni leslie nung naglalakad daw sila, nagtanong si marci kung aalis daw ba talaga ako, she said yes and marci again asked her, "bakit ang bilis?" leslie didn't know how to answer that so she decided not to. baka daw kasi masabi niya "bakit di mo tanungin ang sarili mo kung bakit aalis si thess?"

anyways, here are some of the pictures taken during that time.. these are just the sneak preview.. all photos are uploaded on the Last Day page. :)

i wish he'd look at me, the way he's looking at you

BREAKING NEWS: Typhoon Ruby was nowhere to be found!

the storm has ended, and a child was born. if that is so, then he is a survivor. God must have loved him that much that even in his natal day, God chooses the time when everything's calm and peaceful. God didn't allow Ruby (the typhoon during that time) to be a hinder in his delivery. He must be special in God's eyes. -well, these are just my opinions the way i see things, i wasn't even there in the first place, and definitely the Creator's thoughts are far higher than mine.

And for that one special child, a survivor of the storm, i pronounce blessings upon you, the good Lord in heaven will bless all the works of your hands. You and your family will prosper. The Lord will bless you beyond your imaginings. I rebuke all the works of evil in your life. Nothing will harm you for you are protected by your Father in heaven, the God of your ancestors Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. You have said in Your word Lord God that whoever believes in Christ is a descendant of Abraham and will receive what God has promised (Galatians 3:29) and now, i claim it, that this child will receive all the desires of his heart that is according to Your will. I pray that this child of Yours will not lose that fire in his heart to serve you more and more. May his words, and his life continue to glorify Your name. Be magnified Lord. Be glorified. In Jesus Christ Mighty name. Amen.

new life..

how many months have past since i last posted something here? 3 months? a lot of things changed.. and i'm glad most of it were good.

i no longer have a job. BUT, i've been very busy at the church which makes me feel good.. someone has invited me to join the Y.A (young adults) ministry and so far i'm happy.. happy to meet new friends, and happy to serve God..

after so many things that had happened in my life i realized just one thing.. God will never leave me.. all His promises are true.. you just have to hold on to His promises because He is true to His words..

i'm not saying that i'm not making any sins at all.. i'm not saying that i'm a righteous man in EVERY way.. what i'm saying is that, i have God with me and He won't forsake me.. when i accept Him in my life, i know EVERYTHING will fall into the right places..

anyways, i never heard Him saying life will be easy, He never promised that, BUT, what He said was that as long as we accept Him, He will be on our side..

and it's true.. more than anything, God is enough to sustain my needs..

confuse..

got this message from someone:

4:18pm
-i may not be visible/audible these days, but it doesn't mean "i dont CARE". im just busy with so many things. truth is, i dont like what's happening to me. because of this so important things that eats my "TIME", i ended -up being SELFISH. i dont know if you can still keep up on me, or if i can still return to the person that i was way back when, but let me assure you that even thru these times that im not with you, i still feel the same like the very way i did towards you when i fell inlove with YOU, & IM SO SORRY.

4:40pm
-i dont wanna hurt ANYBODY! il give my TIME if i could!!! but sometimes there are things that I need to PRIORITIZE, and at the same time of course, some things are need to be taken FOR-GRANTED.. its COMPLICATED when you know that things are not GOOD ENOUGH even if you know deep inside you'reonky trying to make things RIGHT. to think that not EVERYONE will even dare try to UNDERSTAND.. im just so thankful that on your part, YOU'RE TRYING!!!
-im just missin you so much..


oh well.. what can i say?