new life..

how many months have past since i last posted something here? 3 months? a lot of things changed.. and i'm glad most of it were good.

i no longer have a job. BUT, i've been very busy at the church which makes me feel good.. someone has invited me to join the Y.A (young adults) ministry and so far i'm happy.. happy to meet new friends, and happy to serve God..

after so many things that had happened in my life i realized just one thing.. God will never leave me.. all His promises are true.. you just have to hold on to His promises because He is true to His words..

i'm not saying that i'm not making any sins at all.. i'm not saying that i'm a righteous man in EVERY way.. what i'm saying is that, i have God with me and He won't forsake me.. when i accept Him in my life, i know EVERYTHING will fall into the right places..

anyways, i never heard Him saying life will be easy, He never promised that, BUT, what He said was that as long as we accept Him, He will be on our side..

and it's true.. more than anything, God is enough to sustain my needs..

confuse..

got this message from someone:

4:18pm
-i may not be visible/audible these days, but it doesn't mean "i dont CARE". im just busy with so many things. truth is, i dont like what's happening to me. because of this so important things that eats my "TIME", i ended -up being SELFISH. i dont know if you can still keep up on me, or if i can still return to the person that i was way back when, but let me assure you that even thru these times that im not with you, i still feel the same like the very way i did towards you when i fell inlove with YOU, & IM SO SORRY.

4:40pm
-i dont wanna hurt ANYBODY! il give my TIME if i could!!! but sometimes there are things that I need to PRIORITIZE, and at the same time of course, some things are need to be taken FOR-GRANTED.. its COMPLICATED when you know that things are not GOOD ENOUGH even if you know deep inside you'reonky trying to make things RIGHT. to think that not EVERYONE will even dare try to UNDERSTAND.. im just so thankful that on your part, YOU'RE TRYING!!!
-im just missin you so much..


oh well.. what can i say?

one-hour phone call..

last sunday (march 15, 2009) i received a text message from kuya arjay..

kuya arjay: tes may landline ba dyan sa house nyo?
me: yup, 4892051
kuya arjay: pwede tumawag? may gusto ko sabihin sayo..
me: sure po..

after a few minutes he called.. it was kinda unusual because it's almost a year since we last had our long conversation.. good thing, i still remember his voice.. hehe..

anyways, the phone call lasted for more than an hour.. it was barely a "kamustahan-thing" until we got to the real reason for that call..

he stated AGAIN his problem.. (actually, it wasn't the first time that he do that..) when i heard it, it left me with no choice but to be mad.. haha.. i guess that's the reason why he loves calling me everytime he has a problem.. he knows that i will be affected that much..

pag tungkol kasi kay kuya arjay, ibang usapan na yun. i think no one has the right to hurt his feelings.. when i said no one, you will not be an exception.. para sakin kasi masyadong vulnerable si kuya.. and simula nung makilala ko sya parang inappoint ko na yung sarili ko na maging savior and protector nya.. (funny, that's how he called me)

i'm not going to post here his problems, cause it is too personal, but i wanna post here the text message i got from him after that talked..

kuya arjay: ikaw una kong naisip nung dumating sakin yang problem na yan.. ikaw lang makausap ko at marinig ko lang ung point of view mo, solve na ko tes.. thank u thess..

hehe.. i love kuya arjay.. feeling ko nga soulmate ko sya..not in the romantic side.. but much deeper.. ung hindi kayang sirain ng kahit sino or kahit ano..