Balik-Tanaw 2011

dahil hindi pa ko masyadong nakakamove-on sa 2011, tara samahan nyo ko, balik-tanaw tayo. :)

`sa pinakaunang araw ng taong ito, kina marci ako nagcelebrate ng new year. pero wala kaming picture. i mean nandun sa tito nya, hindi ko nakuha hehe.

`sa taong ito din, first time ko makaattend ng prayer and fasting sa COG Jabez. grabe yung feeling! (at habang ginagawa ko tog entry na to, eh prayer and fasting na ulit ng COG for 2012, syempre i'm going to participate ulit kahit wala ko dun hihi.)

`sa taong ito, first time ko din ma invite sa Worker's General Assembly. hindi kasi lahat nabibigyan ng chance na makapunta dun.

`sa taong ito, sinabi niya na mahal nya daw ako, naging kami din, saka first kiss. at sa taong ito din kami naghiwalay. sad no? :( muntik na din mawala samin yung pinakamamahal namin na ministry. buti na lang the Lord has been so good and gave us enough wisdom to determine what's right and wrong, then enough courage to stand on what we believe in. for that, i Praise GOD!

`sa taong ito, mas naging active ako sa medical ministry. ang dami daming medical missions at sobrang blessed na blessed ako every time nakakasama ako. ang wish ko na lang, ngayong 2012, sa WEYJ mission naman ako makasama. hehe

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`sa taong ito, ang dami dami ding Medical bonding.. one of the best blessing of the Lord is the fellowship with your co-servant.

`sa taong ito, sumali din ako sa Multimedia Ministry. si james ang leader ko, at team Shalom ang group namin. I witness how the love of the Lord manifests to young people, and i was blessed at the same time. naranasan ko yung schedule na 5am service lalo na nung umpisa kasi gusto kong magpractice at gusto ko maperfect yung ginagawa ko hehe. and the Lord sustains me. :)

`Kung madaming bonding/fellowship ang Medical, madami ding fellowship ang team Shalom. hehe. papahuli ba naman kami? syempre hindi! daming iyakan moments. may pagkakatampuhan minsan pero sa huli, kami kami pa din talaga ang magkakapatid. :)

`sa taong ito, mas naging close ko si ate nori, firmo, leslie, james, migs, jessa at tj. sila halos yung palagi kong kasama at nakakaalam ng mga kwneto kwento ng buhay ko. hehe.

`sa taong ito, mas naging close din kami ni steph at jeck. nakakatuwa kasi pinagkakatiwalaan nila ako ng mga secrets nila.

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`sa taong ito, mas napamahal sakin sina nanay sharon. grabe naman kasi yung love ng family nila sakin. si tatay, si nhizey, si blessy, si dotti at lalong lalo na ang bunso namin, si jonel. parang in an instance nagkaron ako ng isang buong pamilya! I cannot express my gratitude to the Lord dahil sa family nila.

`sa taong ito, nagkaron pa ko ng isa pang nanay. si nanay carol. isa pa tong si nanay. kala mo totoong anak ako kung ituring. sobrang lambing! nakakalungkot sabihin to pero yung hinahanap ko sa mama ko, kay nanay ko nakita. ang sarap sarap pa magluto ni nanay carol!

`sa taong ito, mas naramdaman ko yung pagiging malayo namin ng mommy ko. i know i disappoint her so much. naaawa na nga ako sa kanya eh, for having me as her child. feeling ko kawawa sya masyado kasi akong naging anak nya. :(

`sa taong ito, nagkabati na kami ng daddy ko. hurray!!! ang tagal din namin hindi nag-usap eh..

`sa taong ito, 2nd time ko makapunta ng baguio with hazel and mimi. yung 1st time ko kasi oras lang tinagal ko sa baguio eh, pero this time nag stay kami ng 3 days kina baby jean. saya!! plan namin, vigan naman next time. hanap ulit kami free accommodation. hehe :)

`sa taong ito first time ko magtampo ng sobra kay firmo. at sana nga lahat ng lalaki katulad niya. marunong tumanggap ng pagkakamali at marunong magsorry. sobrang natouched ako nung hindi siya tumigil sa paghingi ng sorry. syempre hindi ko din naman balak patagalin yung away namin, but im so glad kung pano niya tinanggap ang pagkakamali niya. at higit sa lahat may napatunayan ako: pag galit ka, naiinis, at humihingi ka ng sorry, napapa-english ka ng hindi oras! haha.

`sa taong ito, mas minahal ko ang tumblr, blogspot at twitter. hehe. at lahat sila hindi connected sa facebook account ko so i must say, there's a little privacy over them kaya mas mahal ko sila. masyado na kasing naging stalker-friendly ang facebook. wala ng challenged sa mga stalker haha. saka masyado na syang nakakasakit, kahit ayaw mong makita wala kang choice kasi nandun lang sya sa gilid diba, lahat ng activities makikita mo. at hindi ko alam kung nananadya ang fb pero pag bukas ko lagi na lang pinakauna yung status nya kung meron man. haaay.

`sa taong ito, nahanap ko ulit ang blogs ni ma'am abie na ilang taon ko hinanap.. pati yung fb account nya na hindi ko naman ma-add kasi nakaprivate, kahit message hindi ko din magawa.

`sa taong ito, naging tatay ko si tatay bong, at mas naging close ako sa mga taga audio or sounds and light ministry..

`sa taong ito, mas naging close ko pa si ate kres. nagkaron din kami ng accountability chat and prayer partner na kami.. i learned so much from her. feeling ko nga mentor ko na din sya..

`sa taong ito, minahal ko si Josh Duhamel ng bongga. as in! ilang beses ko na pinanood ang movies nya, dinownload para may sarili akong copy. haay love him much. :)

`sa taong ito din ako unang nakasakay ng airplane. kasama ko si malkolito. pumunta kami ng dubai. (actually habang ginagawa ko tong blogs na to eh nasa dubai pa din kami.)

`sa taong ito, syempre nakagala ako sa dubai. haha :)

`sa kahuli-hulihang araw ng taong ito, may nagsabi sakin na selfish ako.

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my news feed on facebook was again flooded by the status of my church mates. while reading some of it, my lacrimal gland (the duct producing tears) won't stop functioning. i know God has done something wonderful in their lives today during the Christmas Cantata and I didn't experience it. I am envy on how they experienced His love. If I could, I would go back to the Philippines right away.

a friend once told me that being alone doesn't mean being lonely, but right now, being far away from the people I love most and spending this entire Christmas season alone means I AM DYING.

Teary-Eyed

that's what i felt after seeing the photos of the Medical Ministry for their Christmas party. yesterday (December 07, 2011) the party was held in the function room of our church, the Church of God Dasma, and the theme was The Wig Party. the idea was from the core and as expected, the event was wonderful and victorious.

i received a lot of text messages before and after the said party. told me that they missed me and wished that i was there. i was feeling the same way too. i wouldn't trade them for anything in this world, and if only i have a choice, i wouldn't be here. i would gladly be with them than anyone in the world. i just missed them so much it made me wanna cry. :(

here are some of the pictures taken during the party. (i get it from doc wahlia's photo album in facebook)

believe it or not, kulang pa yang mga yan, not even half of the whole team :)

they do love pictures, proven and tested, in every event ^_^

my dearest core, tatay alan with his baby abiel, tita razelle,

doc wahlia (our ministry head), doc queenie and ate marcelle

with Pastor Jet Javier, department head of Outreach

this is during the praise and worship

JEDIDIAH

-Jed-ah-dye-ah (pronunciation)

-the meaning of the name is "Beloved of the Lord."

i am doing my devotion in the book of 2Samuel when i read this. this is the name given by the Lord, through the prophet Nathan, to Solomon when Bathsheba, the wife of David, gave birth.

and i had this thought: when my mom gave birth to me and named me Marites, what must be God's name for me? i guess i wouldn't know it now but i am adding this question to my personal list of soon-to-be-ask-questions to God. when that day He would be calling me comes. :)

Usapang Last Day

wala naman akong ginawa masyado. nung hapon umattend ako ng medical fellowship. i give thanks for what the Lord has done for me and bid my farewell as well. ang sinabi ko bakasyon lang naman ang reason kaya ako aalis, a part of it was true kasi tourist visa lang naman ang meron ako, i didn't tell them that i am going to look for a job here in dubai. pero kahit ganun yung sinabi ko di pa din maiwasan na hindi umiyak. feeling ko kasi matatagal talaga akong mawawala and mamimiss ko ang medical family. masyado akong naging dependent sa presence nila sa buhay ko. maybe because i longed so much for a family and they were the one who filled that longing. kaya ang hirap magpaalam.

after the fellowship uuwi na ko dapat, nung pumasok ako sa Multi room nandun si Tim (anak ni nanay carol so basically dapat kapatid ko sya.) sabi niya sakin "ano ba yan, aalis ka na lang at lahat di ka man lang nagpaSB."(starbucks) sabi ko wala akong budget kasi nga aalis ako. when i went out biglang nagyaya si Leslie mag SB, treat daw niya. eh naisip ko bigla si Tim so pumasok ako sa Admin room and nagyaya ako sabi ko treat ko sa mga gustong sumama. hehe. people in there were kuya kim, kuya arnel, tim, firmo and marci. lahat sasama except for marci. maybe naisip nya na hindi sya welcome kasi hindi kami in good terms during that time. pumasok si marci ng multi room and i went after him. silang dalawa ni kuya aladen ang nandun.

me: kuya aladen sama ka?

kuya aladen: san?

me: SB. treat ko.

kuya aladen: sige.

me: marci, ikaw sama ka?

marci: pwede ba?

me: oo naman. :)

while walking, si kuya arnel, kuya kim at firmo yung mga kausap ko.. pagdating namin sa SB, last kami pumasok ni firmo, hindi ko alam kung sinadya nila pero the only vacant seat for me eh yung sa tabi ni marci. hindi din naman kami nag usap actually. tatlong beses ko nga lang narinig na ako ung kinausap nya. first nung tinanong ko sya kung anong pastries ang gusto nya at sumagot sya ng "ikaw na lang yung bahalang mag-order para sakin" honestly, hindi ko alam kung sinusubukan nya lang ba kung until now eh alam ko pa din yung mga favorite nya or itatry ko orderin yung mga dating inoorder nya pag magkasama kami. second nung picture taking na and they decided to take some photos of me and marci ang sabi nya na pabulong "ngiti ka naman". and third nung nag-uwian na kami ang sabi nya "salamat thess."

sabi ni leslie nung naglalakad daw sila, nagtanong si marci kung aalis daw ba talaga ako, she said yes and marci again asked her, "bakit ang bilis?" leslie didn't know how to answer that so she decided not to. baka daw kasi masabi niya "bakit di mo tanungin ang sarili mo kung bakit aalis si thess?"

anyways, here are some of the pictures taken during that time.. these are just the sneak preview.. all photos are uploaded on the Last Day page. :)

new life..

how many months have past since i last posted something here? 3 months? a lot of things changed.. and i'm glad most of it were good.

i no longer have a job. BUT, i've been very busy at the church which makes me feel good.. someone has invited me to join the Y.A (young adults) ministry and so far i'm happy.. happy to meet new friends, and happy to serve God..

after so many things that had happened in my life i realized just one thing.. God will never leave me.. all His promises are true.. you just have to hold on to His promises because He is true to His words..

i'm not saying that i'm not making any sins at all.. i'm not saying that i'm a righteous man in EVERY way.. what i'm saying is that, i have God with me and He won't forsake me.. when i accept Him in my life, i know EVERYTHING will fall into the right places..

anyways, i never heard Him saying life will be easy, He never promised that, BUT, what He said was that as long as we accept Him, He will be on our side..

and it's true.. more than anything, God is enough to sustain my needs..