LOST

As I wake up at the darkness of the night
No one to feel my touch;
As gravity pull down the tears in my eyes
No one to caress my back.

Alone in the corner of my room,
Safe from being fooled.
Trying to escape from the crowded place,
Being annoyed by people of your palce.

My decision is not easy.
Broken is a damn thing.
It's not the way to lessen the pain.
Don't follow me. I'm lost too.

finally..

who the hell told you that you cannot make your own decisions?

finally i am free.. free from those people who do nothing but manipulate me.. i am on my own now.. nothing to worry.. no rules to follow.. no one, but me! after so many years, i felt free again..

is this really what life means? do i really have to go back to that thing again and listen to people around me who knew nothing about what's really happening? or do i have to stand with my own decision and if ever i fail (AGAIN), blame no one but myself? i guess, i would choose the latter.. i don't care whether i would fail or i would get hurt.. as long as i am free and no one to manipulate me, i am happy!

happy to know that no one tries to drive my own life.. it is my life, i should drive it!.. i don't care if people don't understand me.. i dont need to explain anything.. it is my life..

finally, it is the time to be happy..

try out..

just trying this thing out.. tagal na din since i last posted a blog.. nakakamiss.. but somehow it's good to create a new blog for a new life.. enough from the past.. it won't do no good.. and it's finally over.. right now, i want to run my own life.. no more manipulating.. no more opinions.. no more decisions from them.. just me and my mind.. let's see how my mind run my own life.. how will it end? nobody can tell.. it's just between me and my mind.. no one to blame but me.. and it's good.. it felt good..