your body is a wonderland by john mayer..

it has been released a long time ago..
i don't know but something in it makes me go crazy right now..
damn!! i really love this song..
how i wish, a guy could do me a song as sweet as this one..


We got the afternoon,
You got this room for two,
One thing I've left to do,
Discover me,
Discovering you.

One mile to every inch of,
Your skin like porcelain,
One pair of candy lips and,
Your bubblegum tongue.

Cause if you want love,
We'll make it,
Swim in a deep sea,
Of blankets,
Take all your big plans,
And break 'em,
This is bound to be a while.

Your body is a wonderland,
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands),
Your body is a wonderland.

Something 'bout the way the hair falls in your face,
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase,
You tell me where to go and,
Though I might leave to find it,
I'll never let your head hit the bed,
Without my hand behind it.

You want love,
We'll make it,
Swim in a deep sea,
Of blankets,
Take all your big plans,
And break 'em,
This is bound to be a while.

Your body is a wonderland,
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands),
Your body is a wonderland.

Damn baby,
You frustrate me,
I know you're mine, all mine, all mine
But you look so good it hurts sometimes.

Your body is a wonderland,
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands),
Your body is a wonderland,
Your body is a wonderland.

soul searching..

i dont know what's into me.. ang hirap ng buhay.. ang dami ko naiisip.. ang daming problems.. those kind of problems that i'm trying to laugh with pero di ko na makayang tawanan.. nagbago na ba ko?.. nagiging weak na ba talaga ko? siguro.. baka nga tama sila..

dati, kaya kong dalhin lahat.. when i say lahat, i mean lahat.. madali lang tawanan eh.. nakakaya ko ipakita na di ako apektado.. ang galing ko nga.. siguro kung may pinakaplastic na tao sa mundo, ako na yun.. kahit yung mga bagay na ikamamatay ng iba, balewala lang sakin.. walang nakakakita na umiiyak ako.. na nasasaktan ako.. na mahina ako..

ayoko sa lahat eh yung kinakaawaan.. awayin mo na ko, murahin mo na ko, pagtawanan mo na ko, matatanggap ko un, pero ang kaawaan ako? damn!! makakapatay ako ng tao..

pero anong nangyayari ngayon? para akong tanga.. andito sa harap ng monitor habang umiiyak.. sa loob ng computer shop na punong puno ng customer.. ng mga taong di ko kakilala.. hinahayaan ko silang makita na umiiyak ako? nasisiraan na talaga ako ng ulo.. di naman ako dating ganito.. isang salita lang nasasaktan na.. kaya kong lumaban.. kaso bakit ganito? di pa nga masakit masyado ung mga narinig ko umiiyak na ko? ang drama ko masyado.. kung makikita ako ng mga kaibigan ko na ganito, malamang mabatukan nila ako.. di kasi ganito ung pagkakakilala nila sakin.. di ako iayakin..

nagbabago na ba talaga ako? kung oo, sana mamatay na lang ako.. ayoko ng ganito.. ayokong magbago.. gusto ko ung dating ako..

words of wisdom from ma'am abie..

napulot ko lang to.. post din kasi ni ma'am abie to sa blogsite nya.. it's cute.. actually it touches a part of my heart.. read it guys.. sana may matutunan kayo, same ng natutunan ko.. :)

Ganun pala talaga, dati-rati nagtataka ako kung bakit ni minsan hindi naisip ng nanay ko na hiwalayan ang tatay ko kahit na hindi siya perfect husband, mahirap pala talaga maging misis. Na-appreciate ko na ang nanay ko at naunawaan kung bakit nagtagal sila ng tatay ko hanggang ngayon.

Totoo rin pala na kahit anong ganda pa ng sapatos mo, pag napagod ka, hahanap-hanapin mo pa rin ang comfort na naibibigay sa 'yo ng tsinelas.

Uuwi at uuwi ka pa rin sa asawa mo pagkatapos mong maglagalag. Hahanapin mo ang luma mong tsinelas, kasi kumportable ka na sa kanya. Alam na niya ang baho mo, lahat ng mga sikreto mo. At lahat 'yun tanggap niya. Dahil mahal ka niya, mahal na mahal.

the parable of the jar and coffee..

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front
of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and
empty Mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then
asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.
He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between
the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They
agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of
course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar
was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and
poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty
space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to
recognize that this jar represents your life."
"The golf balls are the important things - your spirituality, family, your
significant other, your children, your health, your friends, and your
favorite passions - things that if everything else was lost and only they
remained, your life would still be full."
"The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house,
and your car."
"The sand is everything else - the small stuff."
"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room
for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all
your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the
things that are important to you."
"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play
with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner
out to dinner."
"Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set
your Priorities. The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee
represented.
The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that
no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of
cups of coffee with a friend."
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a
day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee.

what's with the date?

june 22.. june 22 na pala.. i remember gerry castillo.. my bestfriend.. my so-called-bestfriend.. my "mhineybhest".. we should be celebrating our 5th year anniversary as bestfriends..

i miss him.. dami na kasing nagbago eh.. we're no longer the "teenager-bestfriends-of-all-time".. hanggang ngayon may tampo pa din ako sa kanya.. he's been my first love.. supposed to be my "only love" kung naalagaan lang.. kaso hindi eh..

since grade 5 minahal ko na si gerry.. sa picture ko pa lang sya nakita nun.. that time, 1st year high school na sya.. palagi akong tumatambay sa labas ng gate ng school namin pag malapit ng mag flag ceremony sa high school at pag malapit na mag 1 pm.. yan kasi yung mga time na dumadating si gerry.. palagi kasi syang late.. kala ko simpleng infatuation lang yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya, kasi nagkakaron din naman ako ng ibang mga crushes kaso yung kanya talaga yung di nawala..

nung mag highschool na ko, lalo ko sya nagustuhan.. cute kasi sya eh.. tahimik.. and matalino.. after ng graduation nya, dun kami naging close.. gumawa talaga ako ng paraan nun.. araw araw ko sya sinusulatan.. hanggang yun, nabuo ung friendship na di ko ineexpect.. kaso syempre mahal ko sya nung mga time na yan, so i want a relationship more than what we have.. kaso sabi nga ng iba, di daw natuturuan ung puso, in short di nya ko talaga kayang mahalin.. after nun, nagkaron na sya ng gf.. tanggap ko naman sana yun kahit masakit eh.. kaso dun kami talaga nagkalayo ng tuluyan.. and the last time we talked, siguro last year lang yun, nag-away kami,.. ayun, hanggang ngayon di na naayos,,. parang bigla nawala yung ilang years na pinagsamahan namin..

i miss him..

i miss my bestfriend..

happy 5th year friendship anniversary mhineybhest.. :(